I’ve been so busy. And wednesday-sunday is going to be even busier! Luckily I’ve been too busy to eat, but unfortunately I don’t have access to a scale at the moment. Today my boyfriend got hired at a factory! He’s gonna be making bank. Plus, I have an interview on Thursday at a daycare center. I think I have a really good chance because of co-op. Fingers crossed!
I think I’ve lost weight. In fact, I’m sure of it. My chest bones are starting to become quite prominent… But my boobs haven’t even shrunk, so it looks really fucking good. :-)

P.S- I’ve eaten 5 grapes & half of a banana today. + a diet coke.

Breakfast- small apple
Lunch- few handfuls of grapes
Dinner- handful of strawberries

+ a diet coke.

I have an old friend’s open house to go to tomorrow, and POSSIBLY going out to dinner with my boyfriend & his family. I’m really hoping we don’t go out to dinner.. I want to eat something at the open house so my old friend will stop thinking I have a problem. Yes, I know I do have a problem. But I enjoy my privacy, I’ve told the people I’m comfortable with and that’s good enough for me. Like, everybody talks about me being anorexic, but I’ve only actually told my boyfriend and another friend who is anorexic/bulimic. I know for a fact they’re the only ones that know the truth. I just want to go to that open house looking fine as fuck, then everyone will see me eat something and think I’m fine.

Always

(via dietandcigarettes)

I’m feelin’ confident today :-)

Today is mine and my boyfriend’s anniversary (1 year & 6 months!). We went out too eat just now. He got chinese, I was going to have a slice of pizza, but… I went in the bathroom and I thought I looked really cute. This doesn’t happen often. I lifted up my dress and my stomach is FLAT. Like no bumps at all, except my hipbones. I was sort of shocked, I really liked what I saw. So I had a diet soda instead of eating.
We’re doing some lines to celebrate, but if I don’t have something I’ll probably be really nauseas. So I’m going to have a banana and call it good. So far I’ve eaten 3/4 of an apple, and 2 strawberries.

Today is really good for me. I’m so happy to celebrate our relationship. This boy and I have been together through SO much. Words cannot even describe how grateful I am for him.

I hope everyone else is doing lovely!